Hi everyone,
Im back after a long stay in the hospital. This pneumonia almost took me out. Im still very weak, fatigued and shaky, but Im getting better every day. I also got a staff infection while in the hospital and that made my progress alot more challenging especially since my immune system is already so comprimised with this hep c.
Unfortunatley, shortly after I was discharged, I picked up smoking again, but Im not happy. Similar to the end of my active alcohol and drug addiciton, not comfortable using or quitting, I know the end is near. I am also not smoking in the house which keeps me smoking less than 10 a day. But for me 1 is too many and a thousand never enough. So although Im disappointed, I forgive myself, am proud for the willingness and desire to succeed on my next quit date. I will not give up.
I thought of you all while I was sick and I had alot of time to meditate and regroup. My husband couldnt possibly post and let you know what was going on with me, Im sure you must have all felt as though I left the face of the earth or moved on without saying goodbye. He wouldnt know how to turn it on...hed be looking where to deposit money to turn the screen on! (smile) and my son wouldnt be comfortable posting for me, plus, I wouldnt want him reading anything I may have shared, so I just let go and let God. Im back now, Im still taking it slow and Im beginning to go back to outside meetings which is exciting. I wasnt only so very sick physically, but spiritually as well. God is so good to help me to bottom out, make me weak, so I could get strong again.I look forward to my new beginning, my new state of mind and even the work that lies ahead of me. I wish I could have told someone but it just wasnt possible and no one knew me well enough to call me.
I hope you all have a great weekend and for the Moms out there, Happy Mothers Day. Ive got to go mash the taters,and toss the salad to go with the shish-kabobed beef and onions on the grill. mmm can ya all smell it???? Warm (((((((((Hugs for all,))))))))))) Kat
Im back after a long stay in the hospital. This pneumonia almost took me out. Im still very weak, fatigued and shaky, but Im getting better every day. I also got a staff infection while in the hospital and that made my progress alot more challenging especially since my immune system is already so comprimised with this hep c.
Unfortunatley, shortly after I was discharged, I picked up smoking again, but Im not happy. Similar to the end of my active alcohol and drug addiciton, not comfortable using or quitting, I know the end is near. I am also not smoking in the house which keeps me smoking less than 10 a day. But for me 1 is too many and a thousand never enough. So although Im disappointed, I forgive myself, am proud for the willingness and desire to succeed on my next quit date. I will not give up.
I thought of you all while I was sick and I had alot of time to meditate and regroup. My husband couldnt possibly post and let you know what was going on with me, Im sure you must have all felt as though I left the face of the earth or moved on without saying goodbye. He wouldnt know how to turn it on...hed be looking where to deposit money to turn the screen on! (smile) and my son wouldnt be comfortable posting for me, plus, I wouldnt want him reading anything I may have shared, so I just let go and let God. Im back now, Im still taking it slow and Im beginning to go back to outside meetings which is exciting. I wasnt only so very sick physically, but spiritually as well. God is so good to help me to bottom out, make me weak, so I could get strong again.I look forward to my new beginning, my new state of mind and even the work that lies ahead of me. I wish I could have told someone but it just wasnt possible and no one knew me well enough to call me.
I hope you all have a great weekend and for the Moms out there, Happy Mothers Day. Ive got to go mash the taters,and toss the salad to go with the shish-kabobed beef and onions on the grill. mmm can ya all smell it???? Warm (((((((((Hugs for all,))))))))))) Kat
Jo
