Since coming to the program, there have been many times that things happen that are just unexplainable. Things like needing
something and out of the blue getting it. People that I never thought I would see again coming into my life because of the program. Thinking it was hopeless
over something and all of a sudden the answer is there. And on several or more occasions not knowing what I was going to as I was broke and had no food or a
bill getting ready to cause a shut off, and the money appears. A check for a overpayment I made, something I won, a card with money in it , it just has
happened to me more than it could be a coincidence since being in the program.
The most striking for me was being at my end with sobriety and wanting to get high even made plans when I got my first check. I stood outside after everyone
had gone to work and screamed at this God , HP whatever that I did not believe in "I CAN"T DO THIS!!! WHERE ARE YOU? WHO ARE YOU? WHAT ARE YOU? I
CAN"T DO THIS ANYMORE!!.
I took a nap and got up to make dinner for my ex's two young boys who I was staying with at the time. He ran a recovery house had not seen him in 24 years
that is a whole other story. Anywho.. I got up and was cooking and all of a sudden I realized something was different. For weeks I had been getting worse and
worse cravings, and it had gotten so bad that I did my scream at God thing. But now even trying to think of it I could not get that feeling back...it was gone
like it was never a part of me ever... Paul came home from the Mens Recovery Home he ran and was reading the paper in the living room. I went in and said
"You are never going to believe this, I do not want to use anymore its gone!!. mind you I never told him my previous plans or even that I was feeling like
using scared he may not trust me which was just my head telling me as of course he would of understood...anyway..
He just smiled and looked up for a sec, then handed me the paper and pointed out what he was reading. It was the horoscope section, and mine read. "You
come out unscathed after having a Spiritual Experience. It also said "Love with a Libra... I still to this day have that clipping tapped to my 12 and
12 inside cover. April 19th 1991. Oh...the Libra.. well that did not happen Bob is a Capricorn...in fact I never have meet any Libra's?? Maybe its one
of the yets.. a grandkid????
Do you relate to this, and if yes what little coincidences have happened in your life.

Jo



